Or it would be, if he hadn't finally seen Kaeya off with a bunch of snacks and in a hopefully better headspace than he was in after that Kimono had shown more than Kaeya had wanted about his shared past with Diluc.]
[Chuuya will come by, and... he still has some snacks on hand from when he'd picked up some for Kaeya and himself earlier, so he brings his share of them as well.
he had manners, okay. Also he felt bad for dropping in on Diluc with this, but it was better to make it clear he knew before Kaeya told him and Diluc started worrying over it.
So he shows up fairly quickly, knocking on the door with a little cloth bundle in hand.]
[Diluc answers the door dressed in a casual short sleeved shirt and slacks, his hair loose and spilling over his shoulders. He smiles brightly when he sees Chuuya standing there. Knowing he was coming does nothing to lessen the pleasure he feels in seeing him.]
Hey.
[And he steps aside for the smaller man to come in, closing the door behind him.]
I think this is the first time you've come into the house when I haven't carried you here.
[He lets out a huff of laughter at that, smile wry as he steps inside.]
Geez, when you say it like that I should probably make a better habit of coming over when I'm sober, huh?
[He offers over the cloth bundle-- the snacks should still be fresh, and Diluc might be surprised to find that some of them are similar to those from Teyvat, or at least the cultural fair's closest approximation.]
Ah? [He makes a pleased sound when he realises what is in the bundle but manages to resist poking through the whole thing right then and there. Instead he invites Chuuya further into the house and to the living room, where he drops onto the couch.
Really, he doesn't think he needs to invite Chuuya to join him at this point.] I'm touched you thought of me.
[Diluc has been over there to, and had run into someone he hadn't expected to see... but Eula had been as difficult to talk with as ever.]
[Chuuya removes his shoes before joining Diluc on the couch, settling comfortably next to him. He doesn't need the invitation, he's long become comfortable here.
Though after a moment, he reaches into his pocket-- pulling out a cat treat he neatly sets out as a peace offering for Addy.]
Yeah, it was pretty interesting. We were looking at clothing before that, though-- You know those enchanted kimonos they're advertising right now?
[Diluc, now that he's seated, sets about investigating the snacks that Chuuya brought for him. A careful eye would reveal his prodding tends to focus more on sweet things than not, and he picks something out before offering the rest for the other man to choose one.]
Ah-- yes, I did hear about those. [Not something he had got around to trying himself. The amount of information that the vendors of the festival had managed to get on him was... startling, to say the least, and he had started to grow unsettled by the amount of people looking his way and muttering to one another. He'd headed home after that.]
I'm glad Kaeya has someone else he's happy to spend time with.
[Chuuya picks something from the bundle at random, interestingly enough. He likes trying new foods from different places, and the fair had been a nice place to find a variety of interesting treats.
And he certainly notices Diluc's bias for sweet foods, a small smile coming to his lips as he eats.]
He's fun to hang out with, really. He was the one who suggested the fair, and I'm glad he did.
[He'll let Diluc snack a bit before he digs into the why they ditched shopping to go elsewhere.]
[It does make him happy. Diluc, even with his nature being more reserved now than when he was younger, tends to be more open about making friends and more trusting of them when it happens. Kaeya in contrast has always been more closed off, and knowing that someone has managed to befriend him - especially when it's someone Diluc regards highly - is nice to think about.
Kaeya has been a little lonely, he thinks.]
He'd like to say I'm the kid out of the two of us but he's just as bad as I am. [Diluc laughs, settling himself back into the corner of the couch.] We both loved the festivals back home when we were children.
[In truth, Diluc and Kaeya both have been helping Chuuya adjust, in the absence of his large 'family'. It's been hard, but... not as crushingly lonely as it could be, to have people he can spend time with comfortably.]
Oh really? and you were telling me of how responsible you were as a child. Kaeya certainly had things to say about that. 'Rambunctious and precocious' I believe his words were.
[Yes, they've been gossiping about Diluc. Frankly, Chuuya thinks it's cute.]
But speaking of which... Something unexpected happened, while we were out.
[Diluc blinks. That they had been talking about him isn't an issue (in fact he would have been surprise if they hadn't been given the circumstances) but for his childhood behaviour to come up like that they must have been gossiping.
He snorts softly.]
I'm not going to deny it, but the two aren't necessarily mutually exclusive you know. [A grin - you know the one, that charming one that Chuuya likes - breaks across his face for a moment.]
And I think unexpected things are par for the course here, but uh... [And now he simmers down slightly, his expression turning a shade more serious.] What kind of something?
[Ah... that grin warms him from the inside usually, but today it only makes him feel guilt. It's not like either of them had a choice about what the kimono had shown, but there's a sort of gnawing feeling that lingers nonetheless, seeing something that intimately painful without permission.
But he reminds himself that this is the better option: He doesn't want Diluc to hear that Chuuya knows and be left thinking who knows what about how Chuuya will react.
His own expression is serious now, a little solemn, a little... apologetic, almost.]
...The enchanted kimonos didn't show just patterns. There were images from the past of the one who was wearing one. When Kaeya tried one on, I ended up seeing some pretty painful ones.
[It's clear on Diluc's face that he knows what Chuuya saw the moment he talks about seeing images of the past. His jaw tenses slightly, lips pressing together, and he averts his eyes from Chuuya's face to look at something in the corner of the room instead.]
Ah.
[He murmurs. Diluc leans forwards to place the half-finished snack he had been enjoying on the table in front of them and then shifts back again slowly, but there's a tension in him now that wasn't there before. Damn this fucking place, why can't it just leave the past well alone when it comes to Kaeya? It's not the first time it's thrown up those memories in front of another person.]
Then-- [He grips his knees lightly to fight the urge to fold his arms, but doesn't win the battle. His fingers curl tightly around his elbows.] You'll be wanting to know my side of the story, I suppose.
I mean... do I have some questions? Yeah, sure. But if I have any right to the answers is another question entirely. Kaeya didn't get a choice about what I got shown, but he ended up explaining things anyway.
[He watches Diluc carefully, noting the tension, the way he grips his knees before folding his arms. It's clear he's uneasy, and Chuuya hates that he's the reason Diluc looks like this, when they've become so comfortable with each other.]
You can explain if you want to, but I'm not going to pry painful answers out of you. I just... needed you to know that I saw.
[Does he have a right to an answer? Not really, but Diluc does not say out loud - at least not yet - that what he saw and why it happened is none of his business. Despite how open he can be about some things Diluc is a private person when it comes to the events of his past that he shares with Kaeya, knowing that neither of them should tell all the details without the permission of the other.
But Chuuya already knows. Does he have the right? No, he doesn't at all, but it isn't as if he's asking unprompted.]
Tch... [Honestly he would have rather heard it from Kaeya. His visible unease comes from the sensation of suddenly feeling cornered, pinned down with the expectation of being asked for answers he might not want to give.]
[And Chuuya is trying, in his own gruff but careful way, to reassure Diluc that there's no pressure here. Perhaps thinking he could head off any concerns by breaking the news to Diluc himself was foolish, with how tense he looked right now.
He reaches up, running a hand through the long lock of hair that hangs uneven down one side of his neck. He looks awkward, repeating what he saw.]
...You and Kaeya were fighting. Kaeya was on the ground, and you were about to strike him with your fire. There was his vision between you two-- freezing things over. And his eye was injured.
[It's... the most non-descriptive way he could describe it.]
[What he'd thought, then. Diluc pushes his hand through his hair then leans forwards, bracing his forearms against his thighs. It's one thing to explain that day of his own volition but entirely another to be confronted about it by someone who saw it by accident.]
I told you my father died suddenly. [He says, his voice low and deceptively even.] He was killed. It was my eighteenth birthday, and we were attacked on our way home. He-- He was hurt, badly. Too badly. I had to make a decision then, and I chose to not watch him suffer.
[He doesn't say the words exactly, but the meaning is clear enough. A deep breath is pulled in, held, let out slowly.]
And then I went home. I didn't know what to do. It felt like I'd just lost everything. Then Kaeya came to see me, and what he told me felt like a betrayal. Of our father, of Mondstadt, and of me and everything we had been through together. And I... snapped. I attacked him, and I would have killed him if he hadn't been granted a Vision.
[Chuuya listens quietly, attentively. To both what is said and not said.
So that's what Kaeya had avoided saying. It was a mercy killing, to end his father's suffering. The right thing to do maybe, but also the most painful option for Diluc. That at least, Chuuya could relate to-- he's lost so many people in the past, friends and subordinates.
When someone was too far gone to save... you did what you could for them, and saw them on their way. Hear their last words, give them a cigarette or flask. Or an end to their suffering.
And then... Kaeya's timing couldn't have been worse.]
So that's why... [It was probably overwhelming, to make Diluc snap. His entire world in shambles at his feet, probably still in shock from what had happened.]
...I'm sorry. I know it doesn't mean much, but... I'm sorry that you had to go through that. Both of you. Most of all though, I'm sorry that you have to talk about something that's still so painful.
[Because of stupid, happenstance shopping trip that took a turn for the worst.]
[He doesn't know why Kaeya had chosen that night to approach him with the truth. No matter how many times the other man tried to explain it, to make sense of it, Diluc couldn't understand. If he had waited even a week, even a few days, Diluc might have been in a better position to listen. If they could have mourned together and then worked through that, maybe what happened that night would not have occurred.
Diluc had been young, with his entire world in ruins at his feet, and then his closest, most trusted friend had told him he had been lying to him their entire lives. In that moment it had simply been too much to bear.]
Yes, well... the magic here has not yet seen fit to leave our past where it belongs. [He frowns and sits up straight, pushing his hair back over his shoulders.] When Kaeya's Vision appeared it was the loudest thing I'd ever heard. Like thunder two feet from my face. I stopped when I realised I'd hurt him, that he was bleeding, but he would barely let me touch him.
[Understandably.]
We talked about it later, but things were never the same after that. It isn't the reason I left Mondstadt, but it didn't help matters.
[Chuuya sets his elbows on his knees, still listening. He wonders now if the reason Kaeya had been clutching his eye had been a headache, or a phantom ache brought forth by the memories.
Could be either, really. The both of them had been through so much... and yet it's somehow not surprising, not really. They'd accepted him after all.]
That vision probably saved the both of you, in the long run. [And maybe there's an irony there-- that Diluc controlled fire and Kaeya ice, but those opposing elements had been just what was necessary.]
...But you mended fences eventually, right? Pretty sure the proof is self-evident there.
We'd always been close. Like twins. Never far apart from each other. You don't just abandon something like that.
[Even if Diluc had, for a long time... Kaeya had known what he was up to before he had told anyone that he was leaving. Varka would have tried to stop him. Kaeya knew it was useless to try.]
I was away from Mondstadt for four years. We communicated by letter, when we were able to, but I often made myself very difficult to find. I came back to a number of notes that had never made it to me. [He still isn't looking at Chuuya, frowning at the table instead.] When I came back we didn't see each other face to face for weeks, but the Grand Master of the Knights of Favonius decided he was going to interfere with that. [He huffs out a soft, dry laugh.]
We've been working together since I got back, but not openly. We still know each other best, after all.
[When Kaeya had told him of how close they'd been as children, Chuuya had honestly thought it was... well, nice. Ideal even, to have someone genuinely by your side through thick and thin. Sure, you could know a person in and out, but that didn't mean they'd truly be... a friend. Or that they'd stick around. He knew from experience.
...It must have been so painful, for the both of them.]
That's when you left the knights, yeah? Or at least I guess as much. Can't imagine you could take hiatus from your job for four years, unless they gave you some sort of mission.
[Which was probably not completely out of the question, but it sounds unlikely.]
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Date: 2022-08-03 11:51 pm (UTC)[Just totally casual. A perfectly normal text.
Or it would be, if he hadn't finally seen Kaeya off with a bunch of snacks and in a hopefully better headspace than he was in after that Kimono had shown more than Kaeya had wanted about his shared past with Diluc.]
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Date: 2022-08-03 11:53 pm (UTC)Where do you want to meet?
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Date: 2022-08-03 11:55 pm (UTC)[That sounds just a little bit flirty, perhaps, but in truth he just doesn't want Diluc to run from this conversation.]
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Date: 2022-08-04 12:01 am (UTC)And Diluc falls for it.]
Come by the house. The bar smells like wet paint and varnish right now.
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Date: 2022-08-04 12:05 am (UTC)[Chuuya will come by, and... he still has some snacks on hand from when he'd picked up some for Kaeya and himself earlier, so he brings his share of them as well.
he had manners, okay. Also he felt bad for dropping in on Diluc with this, but it was better to make it clear he knew before Kaeya told him and Diluc started worrying over it.
So he shows up fairly quickly, knocking on the door with a little cloth bundle in hand.]
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Date: 2022-08-04 12:08 am (UTC)Hey.
[And he steps aside for the smaller man to come in, closing the door behind him.]
I think this is the first time you've come into the house when I haven't carried you here.
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Date: 2022-08-04 12:55 am (UTC)Geez, when you say it like that I should probably make a better habit of coming over when I'm sober, huh?
[He offers over the cloth bundle-- the snacks should still be fresh, and Diluc might be surprised to find that some of them are similar to those from Teyvat, or at least the cultural fair's closest approximation.]
Kaeya and I stopped by the fair earlier.
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Date: 2022-08-04 12:59 am (UTC)Really, he doesn't think he needs to invite Chuuya to join him at this point.] I'm touched you thought of me.
[Diluc has been over there to, and had run into someone he hadn't expected to see... but Eula had been as difficult to talk with as ever.]
Did you have a good time?
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:01 am (UTC)[Chuuya removes his shoes before joining Diluc on the couch, settling comfortably next to him. He doesn't need the invitation, he's long become comfortable here.
Though after a moment, he reaches into his pocket-- pulling out a cat treat he neatly sets out as a peace offering for Addy.]
Yeah, it was pretty interesting. We were looking at clothing before that, though-- You know those enchanted kimonos they're advertising right now?
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:27 am (UTC)Ah-- yes, I did hear about those. [Not something he had got around to trying himself. The amount of information that the vendors of the festival had managed to get on him was... startling, to say the least, and he had started to grow unsettled by the amount of people looking his way and muttering to one another. He'd headed home after that.]
I'm glad Kaeya has someone else he's happy to spend time with.
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:34 am (UTC)And he certainly notices Diluc's bias for sweet foods, a small smile coming to his lips as he eats.]
He's fun to hang out with, really. He was the one who suggested the fair, and I'm glad he did.
[He'll let Diluc snack a bit before he digs into the why they ditched shopping to go elsewhere.]
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:38 am (UTC)Kaeya has been a little lonely, he thinks.]
He'd like to say I'm the kid out of the two of us but he's just as bad as I am. [Diluc laughs, settling himself back into the corner of the couch.] We both loved the festivals back home when we were children.
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:46 am (UTC)Oh really? and you were telling me of how responsible you were as a child. Kaeya certainly had things to say about that. 'Rambunctious and precocious' I believe his words were.
[Yes, they've been gossiping about Diluc. Frankly, Chuuya thinks it's cute.]
But speaking of which... Something unexpected happened, while we were out.
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Date: 2022-08-04 06:52 am (UTC)He snorts softly.]
I'm not going to deny it, but the two aren't necessarily mutually exclusive you know. [A grin - you know the one, that charming one that Chuuya likes - breaks across his face for a moment.]
And I think unexpected things are par for the course here, but uh... [And now he simmers down slightly, his expression turning a shade more serious.] What kind of something?
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:00 am (UTC)[Ah... that grin warms him from the inside usually, but today it only makes him feel guilt. It's not like either of them had a choice about what the kimono had shown, but there's a sort of gnawing feeling that lingers nonetheless, seeing something that intimately painful without permission.
But he reminds himself that this is the better option: He doesn't want Diluc to hear that Chuuya knows and be left thinking who knows what about how Chuuya will react.
His own expression is serious now, a little solemn, a little... apologetic, almost.]
...The enchanted kimonos didn't show just patterns. There were images from the past of the one who was wearing one. When Kaeya tried one on, I ended up seeing some pretty painful ones.
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:08 am (UTC)Ah.
[He murmurs. Diluc leans forwards to place the half-finished snack he had been enjoying on the table in front of them and then shifts back again slowly, but there's a tension in him now that wasn't there before. Damn this fucking place, why can't it just leave the past well alone when it comes to Kaeya? It's not the first time it's thrown up those memories in front of another person.]
Then-- [He grips his knees lightly to fight the urge to fold his arms, but doesn't win the battle. His fingers curl tightly around his elbows.] You'll be wanting to know my side of the story, I suppose.
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:17 am (UTC)[He watches Diluc carefully, noting the tension, the way he grips his knees before folding his arms. It's clear he's uneasy, and Chuuya hates that he's the reason Diluc looks like this, when they've become so comfortable with each other.]
You can explain if you want to, but I'm not going to pry painful answers out of you. I just... needed you to know that I saw.
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:26 am (UTC)But Chuuya already knows. Does he have the right? No, he doesn't at all, but it isn't as if he's asking unprompted.]
Tch... [Honestly he would have rather heard it from Kaeya. His visible unease comes from the sensation of suddenly feeling cornered, pinned down with the expectation of being asked for answers he might not want to give.]
What, exactly, did you see?
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:33 am (UTC)He reaches up, running a hand through the long lock of hair that hangs uneven down one side of his neck. He looks awkward, repeating what he saw.]
...You and Kaeya were fighting. Kaeya was on the ground, and you were about to strike him with your fire. There was his vision between you two-- freezing things over. And his eye was injured.
[It's... the most non-descriptive way he could describe it.]
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Date: 2022-08-04 07:44 am (UTC)I told you my father died suddenly. [He says, his voice low and deceptively even.] He was killed. It was my eighteenth birthday, and we were attacked on our way home. He-- He was hurt, badly. Too badly. I had to make a decision then, and I chose to not watch him suffer.
[He doesn't say the words exactly, but the meaning is clear enough. A deep breath is pulled in, held, let out slowly.]
And then I went home. I didn't know what to do. It felt like I'd just lost everything. Then Kaeya came to see me, and what he told me felt like a betrayal. Of our father, of Mondstadt, and of me and everything we had been through together. And I... snapped. I attacked him, and I would have killed him if he hadn't been granted a Vision.
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Date: 2022-08-04 08:01 am (UTC)So that's what Kaeya had avoided saying. It was a mercy killing, to end his father's suffering. The right thing to do maybe, but also the most painful option for Diluc. That at least, Chuuya could relate to-- he's lost so many people in the past, friends and subordinates.
When someone was too far gone to save... you did what you could for them, and saw them on their way. Hear their last words, give them a cigarette or flask. Or an end to their suffering.
And then... Kaeya's timing couldn't have been worse.]
So that's why... [It was probably overwhelming, to make Diluc snap. His entire world in shambles at his feet, probably still in shock from what had happened.]
...I'm sorry. I know it doesn't mean much, but... I'm sorry that you had to go through that. Both of you. Most of all though, I'm sorry that you have to talk about something that's still so painful.
[Because of stupid, happenstance shopping trip that took a turn for the worst.]
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Date: 2022-08-04 08:08 am (UTC)Diluc had been young, with his entire world in ruins at his feet, and then his closest, most trusted friend had told him he had been lying to him their entire lives. In that moment it had simply been too much to bear.]
Yes, well... the magic here has not yet seen fit to leave our past where it belongs. [He frowns and sits up straight, pushing his hair back over his shoulders.] When Kaeya's Vision appeared it was the loudest thing I'd ever heard. Like thunder two feet from my face. I stopped when I realised I'd hurt him, that he was bleeding, but he would barely let me touch him.
[Understandably.]
We talked about it later, but things were never the same after that. It isn't the reason I left Mondstadt, but it didn't help matters.
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Date: 2022-08-04 08:30 am (UTC)Could be either, really. The both of them had been through so much... and yet it's somehow not surprising, not really. They'd accepted him after all.]
That vision probably saved the both of you, in the long run. [And maybe there's an irony there-- that Diluc controlled fire and Kaeya ice, but those opposing elements had been just what was necessary.]
...But you mended fences eventually, right? Pretty sure the proof is self-evident there.
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Date: 2022-08-04 08:36 am (UTC)[Even if Diluc had, for a long time... Kaeya had known what he was up to before he had told anyone that he was leaving. Varka would have tried to stop him. Kaeya knew it was useless to try.]
I was away from Mondstadt for four years. We communicated by letter, when we were able to, but I often made myself very difficult to find. I came back to a number of notes that had never made it to me. [He still isn't looking at Chuuya, frowning at the table instead.] When I came back we didn't see each other face to face for weeks, but the Grand Master of the Knights of Favonius decided he was going to interfere with that. [He huffs out a soft, dry laugh.]
We've been working together since I got back, but not openly. We still know each other best, after all.
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Date: 2022-08-04 09:02 am (UTC)...It must have been so painful, for the both of them.]
That's when you left the knights, yeah? Or at least I guess as much. Can't imagine you could take hiatus from your job for four years, unless they gave you some sort of mission.
[Which was probably not completely out of the question, but it sounds unlikely.]
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